For the past few years my birthday approaching has made me feel overly pensive about where I am in life. I know this is pretty normal but I feel like I take it too far, I’m a fairly over dramatic person as it is but when my birthday comes around this trait of mine goes into overdrive.
The reality of getting older hit me like a lightening bolt on the night of my 22nd birthday. I called my best friend Amy drunkenly sobbing that I had no clue what I was doing with my life, I didn’t know who I was and I was running out of time.
Cut to this year, days before turning 25 and I was soberly sobbing to my boyfriend that I have no clue what I am doing with my life, I don’t know who I am and I am rapidly running out of time.
Three years have gone by and I feel like I’m getting worse! No wiser to how best to deal with getting older.
I have googled, more times than I’d care to admit, “what is good about turning 25”, “what happens when you turn 25”, “at what age should I have things figured out”. It’s embarrassing, I know. But ever since my devastatingly drunken 22nd birthday meltdown I have had the overwhelming sense that my time is limited and I am living by the rhythm of an illusive timer.
The seconds keep dropping off and I’m not moving fast enough to justify the loss of time.
People say that being 25 is amazing, that it’s the age where everything you learned in your early twenties becomes cemented and forms the person you are and creates the foundation for the person you will be. I trust that is true. I know I have learnt a lot throughout my life and I have had truly formative experiences.
Maybe that is the point of being 25, using what you learned in your early twenties, taking the person you are now to create the person you will become when you turn 26, 27, 28…
I’m taking this year as my foundation year, the starting point to an adulthood filled with meaningful, positive and fulfilling moments!
In my next post I think I’ll go into a bit about what I’ve learned in my first 25 years and some things I’d like to achieve in the next year or so!
But before I go, has anyone else had their quarter-life crisis yet? And do you have any tips to feel better about getting older?